You asked me to go away. So I did. Not because I don’t care. But because it’s what you asked for. Life goes on. With or without you. But I will always be here because you matter to me. People take each other for granted far too often. I will never give up on a person I care for. Everyone should feel wanted. Show some compassion. Even to those who may not do the same for you. Be bigger. Be better.
I spent the evening with my mother. Talking, bonding, and getting in some much needed time together before her next surgery. Life got kind of crazy with school and emotional tensions so it was nice to be able to sit down, relax and enjoy each other’s company for a short while.
We talked about how life has changed in the last year and how it’s going to change some more. We spoke of loss on a much grander scale than our hair, we spoke of friendships and inner strength. It was nice to verbalize all that’s flashed by in the recent months. She asked me about the people who are no longer around and where I am going to go now and I felt numb like I just don’t know.
The only thing I do know is that I am strong enough to stand alone because I had to learn to be and because of that no matter where I go or what I do now I am ready for it. So much more than I ever was before. Once you’ve seen darkness you begin to pay attention to the light no matter how small.